Today while doing my devo I ran across this saying "Truly, it is worth being poor and greatly tried in faith, for the sake of having day by day such precious proofs of the loving interest which our kind Father takes in everything that concerns us". George Muller
As I read this, I reflected on my life here as a missionary. I was thinking, am I happy that I am poor in money, there are many days when my answer is no. I think of all the things I could do if I had more money for our ministries. If I didn't have to continuously pray for more support and if I didn't have to continuously ask for more money. My least favorite part of being a missionary is asking for support. But I see that with being poor in wealth is making me strive to be rich in faith. I have to rely on God to provide because I have no other way to provide for myself. He has put on people's heart to support us and I'm so happy for that. I have to continue to trust in His will for my life. This can also be very hard. When we go to these villages, there are so many needs and everyone asks us for help. How do I chose who gets what and how do I chose what to tell people at home. If I wrote down all the needs that are here I would never stop writing. This is where my mind wonders off and I think how did I get this role. I do not want to let anyone down, I want everyone to have someone speaking on their behalf. I guess I have been dong a lot of thinking since coming back. I don't have answers to all the questions I ask myself. But I do have God who is in my corner, cheering me on, telling me what to do and how to do it. Yes I may be poor in wealth but I feel that everyday I'm becoming richer in my faith.
